Good morning, sweet friends!
Tomorrow is a big day in our family’s life. We go (bright and early) to the hospital to have Seth’s big post-op check up – with all the tests. I have to be honest with you, for some reason I’m really battling old fears. For so many years, I’ve hated the simple little oxygen saturation test that starts each check-up (they just wrap the reader around his finger and it tells them what his oxygen level is). Finding out how low his oxygen real was was a horrible, depressing way to begin. My palms begin to sweat just thinking of it.
Another haunt from the past is the old experiences of going to the doctor thinking he was doing well just to be told that he really wasn’t. There’s a little whisper in the back of my mind that the same thing will happen tomorrow. Could there be something going on with Seth that I don’t know?
Isn’t it crazy? I’m frustrated with myself that I can’t look at this check up with eyes that see the new reality God has given us! God’s given us totally changed our lives, and yet, I keep reaching back to the past. I should be dancing!
All I can do is exactly what I’ve been sharing with all of you – give it to God. Each and every time those worries and fears (even my frustration with myself) creep in, I have to stop and say, “God, I’m sorry for not trusting you. Help me to trust. I give you my fear, and I pray that you will destroy it.” Then I give Him tomorrow and pray that He will be glorified.
This has also made me think – I hope that none of you ever “hear” from me, “Don’t worry” or that you shouldn’t worry. It happens when your child is ill. BUT, I do hope you hear, “Give it to God”.
It’s all we can do, and at the same time it’s the greatest thing we can do. Who is there better to give anything to? I choose to give everything and all of me to the Maker of the Universe.
“Giving to God” means to truly give it to Him. We can’t give a piece of it or place it in his hands while still holding on to it ourselves. Often, we have to battle ourselves not to grab hold of whatever it is again.
“Giving to God” means to ask Him to take our worry or fear, knowing that He will work for the very best in our situation. It also means that we determine to live the life of a child of God – cared for, loved, secure, and being used for His glory – and not let anything keep us from our Father.
Thanks for taking a moment to listen to my worries – sharing with friends, always helps 
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In His Love,
Kimberly
