

On Sunday, we were blessed to hear Terry Mortenson, PhD, MDiv from Answers in Genesis speak on the topic “Creation vs. Evolution: Why it Matters”. I wanted to share something he said that was a healing salve to my soul ~ and I pray it will be the same for you.
To understand the healing, I think we need to uncover the hurt first. I want to share these details of my struggle in the hopes that it may help you to see your own feelings more clearly and allow you to receive healing too.
When Seth was first born, he was given a diagnosis that terrified me. He would have multiple open-heart surgeries leaving him with 1/2 a functioning heart. My soul cried against it and my mouth argued with the doctors who insisted on giving it! It didn’t sit well with me because it did not fit with my desires for my son or with who I believed God to be – a good, loving, healing God. It wasn’t right.
Two realities were clashing inside and around me – the reality of the medical world and my reality of my God and what should happen in His world. As the years went on and this battle of two worlds continued, I was often very confused. In fact, it caused me to feel that I had to be doing something wrong. Maybe I wasn’t accepting God’s will and He was angry. Maybe I wasn’t praying/believing/thinking right. That began a journey on “The Road to Self-Destruction”. (Those of you who were part of my teleseminar “The Messy Motives of a Worried Mom” will recognize that phrase. Those you who weren’t there will be able to read more about it in the e-book of the same name that I’m currently writing.) I’d use the Bible to beat myself up. After all, if I was a good Christian and really had faith, wouldn’t I be OK, peaceful even, with whatever might happen?
This is what Dr. Mortenson shared yesterday. He asked, if we are animals and death is natural, why do we cry when our four month old dies? Why do we cry when someone when love dies? This is a rough quote, but what he said next both healed my old hurt and brought peace. He said, “We should cry because it isn’t right. Our soul knows it.”
According to Genesis, God created His world to be good. Sickness and death are not good, but they entered our world with the original sin. God never intended for children (or anyone) to get sick and die. That sin opened the flood gates of Hell and separated us from God. Thank God, that through Christ, we can be fully reconciled to Him, and the enemy has no real power over us or our eternal souls. The fact remains, though, that sin and the enemy run rampet over the earth and we still suffer their consequences. The Holy Spirit in us cries to the Father, in pain, “This isn’t right! This isn’t what we wanted the world to be like!”
So, now I have peace. My spirit fought against Seth’s diagnosis because it isn’t right for a child of God. I’m so grateful for a Father who will walk us each down the road of our unique journeys. To some, He will give peace to accept a diagnosis; others will be stirred up against it. Praise God that He doesn’t leave us to suffer the consequences of sin on our own.
And He Who searches the hearts of men knows what is in the mind of the [Holy] Spirit [what His intent is], because the Spirit intercedes and pleads [before God] in behalf of the saints according to and in harmony with God’s will.
We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose,
Romans 8:26-28
Amplified Bible (AMP)
Thank God for the Holy Spirit who also guides us to Him. Not only that, the Spirit urges us to pray and even prays for us. He is certainly our Helper (John 14:16). May the truth that the Helper is with you always and that God is working for your good give you hope, Dear One. I pray you will also find peace knowing that the illness your child suffers does not please the LORD, it is not right to Him either, and He will not let you face it alone.
In His Love,
Kimberly
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